on paper street

Now, when everything is upside down, and I can´t really meet my friends eyes without wondering who thinks I´m an idiot, where do I look for comfort? R. I know his name now. If that can be considered progress I´m not even sure. I should have said goodbye the minute I found out. He will be R to you all. And he is probably the last one I should turn to.

I keep thinking of the time at the party when Miri kissed Avy. Now that she reminded me, he did look awfully pale. I can´t help but wondering if I´m just some form of revenge. I really don´t know what to do. I barely know him and he already has some kind of hold on me. I feel I have no one to turn 2 since I´m what you would call the bad guy in this. I would turn 2 Miri, since her philosophy goes something like;

-Does he have good hair?
-He does.
-Does he wear sneakers?
-He does not.
Does he smoke?
-He does.
-Then what is the question meine liebe?
But I´m not sure she will be on my side this time.
Last day of work this week. Then a weekend to fill.