What?

I´m going to take a short one to Las Vegas over the weekend. With Ryan.

Don´t ask...

only in the night

undergroundclubs and dark streets all night long. amen.

prom times

I long 4 prom times. 4 those infamous texts.

From:Miri
Lets crash some proms and steal some virginities.

I am sorry [insert you who lives on berkely ave]

After some stops at a few different house parties I got the questionable pleasure of meeting Calais. I was painfully sober, can´t say the same about her. I had this idea that being sober would help me pick a good guy 4 once. I can tell you 4 sho; that does not work! Boys are ugly when sober.

I don’t really know how, but I ended up the designated driver. I hit more stuff then I avoided though, with that big ass car. I am very sorry [insert who ever lives on berkely ave according to my questionable calculations] but I haven´t driven in so long! No wonder we didn’t even reach our final goal. Akbar is 4 pussys anyways.

Lemonade boy

I totally forgot to tell you about this bizarre thing that has been nagging me ever since.

I was playing with little S on the street a few days ago. She had watched a simpsons episode and was now determent to build a lemonade stand as they apparently had done. The thing is no one on our street ever walks. It´s run run run car car car jog jog jog, so it ended up being mostly me buying it all. Then this boy came down the street. I think he introduced himself but I don´t remember his name. He apparently lives on the same street as we do, meaning he is riddiculosly wealthy and all, but he didn´t act like that. I think he is a few years younger than me, and he was very speciall in an uncommon way. A very nice boy (and totally easy on the eyes). Then he kinda pulled me to the side, after making S a few dollars richer, and he told me how he used to watch me leave the house late in (borrowed) heels and then return home barefoot in the morning carrying them in my hand.

I didn´t know to be scared or flattered. I chose scared and I think he noticed cause he then added;

- Me and my friends that is. They have kinda dared me to invite you in one day but I told them your way to old and way to pretty.

And then he went so red, so red, made some excuses and tumbled off. I don´t know if it was the old, or the pretty part he regretted. I was left just as tumbled as he seemed.

ph: L.S.I

I don´t even think Mrs has noticed that I´m wearing her shoes. She has enough anyways. They will be more loved with me. I have today and the rest of the week off.
BN though; Mr and Mrs will be home so I need to find me some other places to play. Sucks that so much people go to school theese days. Dont stay in school kids, or you will have no time to do snow. Tonight I will be hunting with Miri. If she has one of those days when she remembers who I am. Fingers crossed.

no swineflu

Eventfull nights this weekend. B-dayparty. Miss Pratt yelling at me, only to go get herself a DUI later. Good job hun. I spent the night in sheets of guilt with Ryan. What the heck was that good 4?

Tonight I´m on a boyhunt. Mental note to self; send bottle of jack to miri and ask 4 NY-forgiveness.

Love S

erotic novel

My computer figured ah, to hell with it and quit on me yesterday. This my friends is a post written from Mr. Bigshots computer. I´m sitting here going through his mail inbox. Very hung over. There is a message hee from TomKats lawyers. Uh oh Mr...

What I was saying though, was hells yes Nick looked so damn good tonight. I´m not even ashamed to say I woke up next to him in a questionable pose this morning.
Not.At.All.
Thats how good he looked. He hasn´t cut his hair since I left for NY it seems, and it was all perfectly cullen-messy and sweet. Ah I´m getting all exited here. He whispered things to. Oh I don´t know how to tell you. I don´t have a way with words just yet, like some of my very well red friends. You should have heard some of the conversations towards the later hours. There was this boy there. Obviously very well red, and obviosly a lame homeschooled boy who accidentaly turned hot. He pulled some fancy quote and laughed to himself. When noone else laughed he raised his voice and almost screamed

- Ah, I guess you dont know your Jean-Jacques Bouchard?

And he kept laughing to himself until Miri found some air in the corner and quietly whispered;

- Douche, Marquis de Sade is turning in the grave with you calling his work Bouchard. Shut the fuck up.

Then she tumbles out and mumbles something about how uptight la di da´s should all be shot of. I dont know where Miri went, or Ladida-boy either. All I know is Nick makes me weak to my knees and I kinda like it.

Jeriko. Sara

yo yo yo

This is F. She busted some moves for me over at her place before we went back to my last night. We met up with twenty something more and crashed the pool. She´s like sixteen or something, and already killah! Tonight I’m hoping to meet M. M hear my call. It’s already late, but I´m on my way out now, so bye my lovers, see you later.

Come on over.

Good news. Mr and Mrs Bigshot is in Atlanta for three days. Seems like this night is for me, and anyone else ready to go bananas.

And btw. Bella took me on a Manhattan walk back in NY, and we passed one of the uppr east side houses of her family’s. Yes, one of them. Shit this would not hurt;

But thats enough. I have promised miri not to go on and on about ny.
I´ll try M.

What I was saying, I come on over! Pool is empty and ready for you all.

Honey I`m home

I´m on my way home. Or home? I don´t know. I´m on my way back though. Back to LA. To Nick, to Ry and Miri. To my alphabet; R, D, L. Back to all my loved ones, and all my lovers, and still I´m not feeling as this is home. I have not told Mr and Mrs why I went to NY. I´m not sure I ever will if I don´t take the job. Ah if I dont take the job. Why the hell not? I would be stupid. But still.

NY has been so kind to me. BB has shown me all the secret places of hers. Small parks, the best pizza, the best vintage stores. Last night I BB fixed me a party. I argued it was to long untill Halloween, but she did not care. 20 pizzas from grimaldis, around 70 people in a three bedroom apartment. Ah BB...I love you.

I love it here, LA that is, but NY treats me like a want it to. La does not. I´m not even a car person, what the hell am I doing here? All I know is that I´m on my way back, and Ry will meet me up as soon as possible. He wants to talk. I´m not exited. I just want my Mirage, a bottle and the jaccuzzi to ourselves.

Los downtowns de east.

this my friends is the wiew from bellas place. What soon may be my place. This city is making everything hard, but what makes it even harder is my mirage. I promise to write more when my internet is working. I promise to write lots and lots. Now I´m going to Brooklyn, and to BB. I love her house. Its like a motel. Or a BandB?People running everywhere. Ah my gosh.

Day, Evening, Night

new york new york

Am I happy? Am I? No, I´m in newyork. I´m whatever´s miles above happy on the scale. If I ignore all those practical things my mind is almost made up. I love this place.

I have been taking pictures lika a madman but the interwebs is not my friend at the moment. Ill put them up as soon as it cooperates.

Playing battleship on the plane

message written yesterday

Right now I am on a plane. A plane to New York and to BB. I took the week of and now I´m on my way to think things over. Feel the town, Feel the people and maybe take a peak at the house. I´m gonna meet Bella to. Lots to do. I´ll talk to you later. Love you all. SJo





Pic from lat time in Ny.

Under some bridge

Good good morning to you all.

Last night.

in the big city of lonely lights

Moving to New York? Please help.

This is the deal; Same job different place. New York (Manhattan)to be precise. What do you think? It´s this other swedish girl, Bella, whom I actually sat next to on the plane to USA for the first time. I was ready to kill her since she got placed on manhattan and got phoenix, but now she called and told me she was going home. She missed her boyfriend. hahaha. gosh. But blahblahblah one thing lead to another and she recommended me to the couple she was working at, who obviously was in need of a new nanny, and they contacted my agency and so on. They called a few days ago. The only one I have mentioned this to is my miri and she was in winter wonderland making snow angels at the time so her answers were not much help.

So;
+ Soho manhattan. Does it get better in this world?
+ BB!!! My dear b would be close by.
- My LA family. My crazy forgiving family. I would miss them. I would miss Little S the most.
- My Ry,my Mirage, my W, my Nick, my s, my C... I mean i have got a whole alfabet of friends here. No more strip-kareoke, no more crazy nights licking wine from W. No more La crew.
+/-:And this celebrity thing. Well I wouldn´t climb down that ladder so to speak...

Help me. Yes/no and why.

Last time I was there BB and I went up empire state at night and I took this. Oh I do actually miss it.

HELP! / sara

Job offer

Excuse my absence. I´m both very drunk and very tired. Since it is the middle of the night i shall leave you, just telling you I have big news. I have gotten a job offer in New York. Whoa. I shall tell you about it, I need your help to decide.

Love S

taken at/on/in(?) Staten Island last time I was there with BB.